A book by Servant Zero

CHURCH HURT,
NOW WHAT?

I didn't leave church because I stopped believing in God.

I left because staying was slowly turning me into someone I didn't recognize.

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I Didn't Leave Church

I left an abusive one. And I found a healthy one.

I still believe in being under leadership. I still believe in obedience. I still believe in having a pastor.

I just couldn't continue to be abused.

This book won't tell you to abandon church.
It will help you untangle what happened — and find your way to healthy community.

This book is for you if...

You've sat in services wondering why faith feels more like fear than freedom.

You've questioned whether the problem was you — your lack of surrender, your pride, your inability to just trust and obey.

You've watched your relationship with God become tangled up with anxiety, guilt, and the constant sense that you're never doing enough.

You've left an unhealthy church — or you're thinking about leaving — and you don't know what a healthy church even looks like.

What's Inside

Naming What Happened

When fear learned to sound like God. When obedience became control. Why you thought it was your fault.

Understanding the Cost

What it did to your body, your family, your sense of self. Why silence didn't heal you.

Beginning to Heal

Separating God from the system. Rereading Scripture safely. Learning to pray without performing.

Moving Forward

Boundaries that aren't rebellion. Forgiveness that isn't forced. Faith that is finally yours.

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This book represents years of processing, healing, and learning to articulate what so many have felt but couldn't name.

When you purchase this book, you're not just getting a resource for your own healing — you're helping fund a ministry dedicated to walking with the spiritually wounded.

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"I don't believe my pastor intended to harm me. But intention does not erase impact — and silence does not heal it."

— From the book

You're Not Alone

This book is part of a larger ecosystem designed to help you heal — at your own pace, in your own way.

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Servant Zero Music

Music that speaks to the spiritually wounded. Songs born from the same journey.

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The KJV Bible sung word-for-word in hip hop style. Scripture you can feel.